this is what i’m doing

& today i looked at my pnc account and said ‘fuck.’ i’m moving out early so that i don’t have to worry about three months of rent. this means i’m definitely going back to ca…internship-less.

i’m confident my life is consisting of me making my niche and accommodating my soul to this world. i work really hard to ‘make it in life’– at the same time decreasing the amount of creativity, fluidity, and flexibility that i desire. it’s the dilemma that most pseudo-intellectuals find themselves in and it’s one i obsess over constantly. i just finished reading lisa’s e-mail and i sensed the true free spirit in her. it was something along the lines of “i feel like i’m connected with everyone” and that she reflects about thailand’s history while building adobe houses for people and painting murals on bar walls. f.

& what am i doing?